2 Years Ago
Two years ago, I was in the second semester of my 4th year at Sonoma State University. I was in the middle of stage managing one of my favorite dance productions I’ve ever done and in one of the hardest semesters I had in school.
Two years ago, I was depressed and had my identity buried in what I wanted others to think of me and not what God thinks of me. I was in a headspace where I thought it was okay to be high a lot of the time and just skate through life numb.
Two years ago I was surrounded by a group of absolutely amazing people and was loved so well, but I didn’t see it. I was wrapped up in what I assumed they thought of me and not what they really saw.
Two years ago I finally made a decision for me. I made a decision that would change my entire life from that point forward.
Two years ago today, I sent in my application for The World Race. It’s crazy to think that my decision only two years ago sent my life on a completely new path without realizing it. It feels more like 10 years ago sometimes.
I will never regret where I was 2 years ago. I was in a hole, but the Lord reached out a hand and gave me a way out. 2 years ago, I said a very small ‘yes’ and grabbed a finger to start climbing out. I thank the Lord I was in that place two years ago so I could get to where I am today.
Today, I am in my first semester of CGA. I’m working in a department that I have a heart for and am passionate about.
Today, I am joyful and thankful for the identity and calling the Lord has given me and where He’s taking me.
Today, I am surrounded by a community that loves me so well and calls me higher. A community that I am loved by and I get to love back.
Today, I am so thankful that I pressed that final ‘submit’ button and that the Lord pursued me harder than I believed I deserved.
Today, I still walking down that path and I’m never looking back.
